Well this has been an interesting day to say the least. I'm sort of upset at the moment because my coloring skills aren't what I thought they were. I mean, when I color something it looks nice but I keep trying to blend colors and make things look realistic... maybe that's just not possible with a Disney Princess coloring book. I've also been trying to do a lot of writing lately and that just doesn't seem to be coming together like I'd hoped. Oh well. What can one do?
Anyways... moving on from that mindless banter; what's up with everyone lately? Is it just me or is everyone seemingly in some sort of mood lately? Everyone seems a little aggravated and slighly pissy. Or maybe it's just me - I'm so pissy and aggrivated that I'm projecting it onto everyone around me. I'm not sure. I also feel like I'm in the way. I'm at my aunt's for a few weeks in California and I just feel in the way. That's not a good feeling. No, it's not.
Confesion: I put myself down all the time. I always try to find something wrong with myself - kind of like this whole project that I'm doing. How crazy is it? Well... if you really knew me you would know that I actually think a lot more of myself than I let on to believe. I just fear that everyone else disagrees with me so when I'm around people I put myself down that way anything that they say wouldn't come as a disappointment or bring me down... which only brings me down more. I'm pretty twisted, I know. Thanks for pointing that out.
Fortune: I have strikingly beautiful eyes. I love them; they are absolutely amazing. They vary in color however, from a slate grey to a crystal-like blue. They're one of a kind and they're mine!
Oh! I'm cutting the whole project about writing something about one person each day... instead I'm taking on this new project that I found. I'm using my message to Sarah yesterday to compensate for "Day 1" - because she's the bff - and I will move on to "Day 2".
EACH DAY, WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Day 2 — Your Crush:
Dear "he who must not be named"...
I'm not quite sure where to begin, really. Do you even know I exist? I mean, I'm aware you know I exist because we talk with some regularity, but do I exist as more than a contact in your phone that you respond to out of some sort of obligation? I doubt it. I like you so much and you are so freaking adorable... but I'm sure nothing will ever materialize. So, sexy man, this is for you.
This above all: To thine own self be true.