Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Rain Rain Go Away, That's What All My Haters Say!

Oh my!

Well, damn. It's been a while - I'm such a slacker! Life has been hurling a fuck-ton of mind-fucks as of late and I just can't seem to get the time to sit and enjoy writing to all of my loves here in my abyss.

Recently I've been doing a lot of thinking about decisions that I have made and those that I have to make - and my overall direction. I do a lot of this sort of reflective shit, I know, but it really helps me to figure my way around this crazy world.

First of all, I have to say that this time of the year seems like "breeding season" or something. Mostly everyone I know is presently in a state of constant "arousal". What the hell, guys. Horny bastards. I know we all have our moments, but everyone is horny and ready to fuck. This may sound silly, but it's a lot more common right now than usual. I think it's that Post-Holiday, cuddling weather, stressed-because-classes-just-started sort of horny, though.

Oh! So, I'm officially done with working at Spencer's and though I absolutely enjoyed it, I'm glad I'm getting more hours at The Body Shop! I love my bosses and co-workers and the atmosphere is phenomenal - not to mention the products have really improved the overall condition of my skin! I mean, sure I say that at work, but off-the-record: This stuff really works! I love how my skin has cleared up and is always glowing and soft! Oh, and of course I love leaving work and smelling so delicious; but trust me when I say that those scents can be overwhelming which doesn't mix well with my migraines. Bleh. But so far I have only wonderful things to say about my employment at The Body Shop.

As mentioned earlier, I have been doing a decent amount of thinking... I have finally decided that I am not allowing myself to move back to the part of my life that was nearest hell as possible: Starke, Florida. That's just not going to happen! There is a cute 1/1 Apartment that is $350 dollars a month that I'm more than inclined to sign a lease for - it would be perfect! I just can't seem to make myself go back to Starke. There's no way I could put myself through all of that bullshit once again!

I keep thinking that one day I will get my turn, but the more shit happens, the more discouraged I become. Oh well - I really don't have much time to keep blogging, but there's so much more I want to discuss. For the next three days, I will blog until my fingers fall... about everything! Ah, so many things to share!

Much love, everyone!


Thursday, January 20, 2011


Life is taking its share of turns and changes...

I will be blogging more soon! Thanks for reading, I love you all! Feel free to say hi!

Love you


Saturday, January 1, 2011

1/1/11 - Really?

Incoherency. Tequila.

Need I say more?

As 2011 approached I spent a decent amount of time reflecting over 2010 and my goals for 2011 - and I came to a scary realization: my goals this year are strikingly similar to my goals last year. It seems to me that we are always achieving a goal - and still seeking to improve it and continue to grow within that goal. Many of my goals last year (if I stop and think for a minute) I have accomplished and achieved; so why are so many of my goals the same?

As we achieve something, we don't always get the same result or gratification that we expect - or if you're just an over achiever like many of my friends (including myself) - it is expected that once a goal is achieved you continue to expound upon it.

Also, it really makes me "SMH" (shake my head) at how many statuses (that is the plural, right?) were about weight loss and exercising because it never seems to happen. Why do we wait until the first of the year to worry about getting in to shape and taking care of ourselves - when inevitably we're going to screw it up anyways. But I would like to take this time to announce that in August I set a goal for myself to lose 50lbs by Christmas. On Dec. 25th at 8:00am I recorded a loss of 49lbs. *cheers and confetti*

I feel quite accomplished with that loss - and now my goal is to lose 80lbs more in 2011.

Oh, so school starts back on Wednesday and I'm taking my classes online. Why? To try and optimize my hours available at work. $380 dollars for rent and money for other bills and money for "living expenses" is hard to earn and save. Save. SAVE.

Such a taunting little bitch of a word, isn't it?

So, I apologize for this mindless banter. One of my goals for 2011 is to make my blog much more interesting complete with all sorts of projects and posts, etc.

For now, enjoy your night and Happy New Years!